What I think about at 2 AM: Life Goes On. What do I mean by this? Read Below.
I do not think it is a bad thing to be sad or even depressed, or angry. Those are natural human emotions. We should embrace those. Just say to yourself, "Hello anger. How nice to see you again. Let's have some tea, cool off, and then I'm sorry but you'll have to leave after a little while." If you don't allow yourself to feel those emotions, I believe it is detrimental to development, and fully recovering from hurt. Allow the emotions to be completely felt, even if unpleasant. Because, after all, how else will you be able to understand true joy unless you experience deep sorrow and misery? Why should we pretend we are completely happy just to put on a show? How does that help us progress at all?
However, we need to (I need to) realize that, hey, life goes on. I know it's hard. But we need to move past some things. I'll often get so caught up in things that really have gotten me down, or stirred up my horrible, redheaded temper. After a while, though, I'll laugh and realize, "Yes, I definitely had a reason to be mad. But what is it to me now?" We can transform that negative energy into rocket fuel to propel ourselves forward. And of course, how could I not write a post without going a little scripture crazy, right? But seriously, these scriptures...man. They are awesome. I came across them because I was writing a good friend of mine who is currently serving an LDS mission, and I expressed to him some of the sadness I had been feeling lately. I was feeling discouraged, because I felt that when I was trying so hard to do the things I know are right for me, other people made it so hard to stand by those decisions. And this is the scripture he gave me:
Philippians 2:12
Wherefore, my beloved, as ye have always obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out your own salvation, with fear and trembling.
Life is hard for everyone. I believe we all have trials that are tailored to our needs, and that our suffering is equal, more or less. Sometimes it doesn't seem that way, like maybe you have such a harder life than your best friend, or that you know someone that has had much harder trials than you...but I believe that we are all so different inside, and only God can see that. He understands which trials will really push us to our limits, and it's different for everyone. Remember your faith. Because sometimes it will feel like the Lord has forgotten you, or He isn't there. I have felt this before, as I wonder why I feel "punished" for doing the right things. But this is a test. He is there, but he is watching how you will obey in his absence. As I was reading that great scripture, I happened to look across the page, and notice an equally amazing couple of verses:
Philippians 3:13-14
Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended: but this thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before. I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus.
Life does go on. There are bigger things on our paths ahead of us. Don't ever lose that eternal perspective. Hold onto the faith that you have...like ...a golden kite. Look up and you will see what's really at the end. I am grateful for sadness. For misery, for woe, for tears and hurt and unbearable pain. Because only after all this will we be able to taste a most amazing, sweet joy. I look forward to pushing myself toward that point in time, pressing toward Christ.
If you want to be happy...BE.
XOXO
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